A long time no see

Hi, my dear friend,

Sorry, You have not hear anything from me a long time. To be honest. I was depressed. It was a shit and hard time. I have many problems now. Fucking bipolar disorder.

Now it is summer, but I am feeling so lonely.

Now I am with my brother in the restaurant, but we do not have about what to talk.

Now I am writing this post and I do not know, what I want to say to You.

But I am trying to believe bad days left me.

My dear friend, be near your friends, love your family and remember, they are the most important thing in this life.

With love,

Yours Rya

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My little trip or sleeping

Hi, my dear friend,

At this moment I am a little busy and I am sorry for this. But today I only wanted to share with some moments of my travel.

It is only the beginning. If I remember well it was 7 a.m.

It is me. Already in Milan. On the way to the airport Malpensa.

Yes, I am vegan. So, my lunch looked like that. And there you can see my lovely unicorn pillow again.

My flight was at 9 p.m. Yes yes, it is amazing. I know.

And let’s sleep again.

I came back at home. It was only 1 a.m. So, I had to wait for the morning when the bus will come to take me to my city which is 4 hours from airport.

So, let’s sleep again.

It was small trip from Genoa, Italy, to Klaipėda, Lithuania. It took one day, I was very tired, but so happy being at home. It was random photos, I did not think to use them for a blog, so, they are not well. But, I hope, at least you can take fun or remember your trips. My dear friend, it would be nice to hear your stories about travels.

With love,

Yours Rya

Apathy

Hello, my dear friend,

Today is 30th of April. I am sitting in airport and waiting for my flight. Today I come back to Italy. May someone would be happy… But I feel only apathy. Yes, I have a bipolar disorder. It is normal. Today I feel nothing. I want to sit, to drink black coffee, to smoke and to do nothing. I should change my mind, but I like it. I like to feel nothing. It does not hurt. I like, when materialism does not matter for me. Life is easier. I like, when people’s words are not important for me. I can live with my own mind. Today I am without feelings. I am crying somewhere in my heart, but even this does not have meaning for me. Yes… Today I am broken.

My dear friend, it is not normal.

But it is normal for me.

My dear friend, I am not sure, why I am writing it here.

I want to remember. Or to forget? I do not know. As I have said, today I want nothing.

I do not want to eat, to sleep, to meet with people. Only to sit and to think.

About what am I thinking without feelings? About everything. Because now feelings do not disturb to me.

My dear friend, sorry for this boring post.

I hope, you are doing well.

With love,

Yours Rya

And sometimes

Hi, my dear friend,

How are you?

About what are you thinking now?

Have you ever noticed, sometimes you are thinking about absurdity?

Sometimes about meaning and importance?

About snowing in summer and raining in winter?

Sometimes about existence and apathy?

Sometimes about your faith and love?

Your individuality and dreams?

Your reality and small world closed from all?

Sometimes about sadness and loneliness?

Sometimes about games, books and movies?

Your friends and family?

Your words for people?

Your pain in the heart?

Sometimes about your problems?

Sometimes about sunny days?

My dear friend, are you thinking about your future?

About your ways and distances?

How often do you think about today?

Not about tomorrow?

Are you thinking, my friend?

With love,

Yours Rya

My new art and logo

Hi, my dear friend,

I have one new for you. Yesterday I decided to create something and now you can find things with my created logo and imagine here:
https://www.redbubble.com/people/chemerovskaya/works/38540444-i-am-bipolar?asc=u

It is not something special, but, I just wanna try to do something good. To try to make this world better and all money, I get, I would like to send to organizations of animals protection.

I do not ask you to do something, but I would like to hear your opinion about this.

And, my dear friend, have a nice day.

With love,

Yours Rya

Mister Greenhat – I chapter

Hi, my dear friend,

I just started my new story telling for kids. And I wanted to share with you. I hope, you like it. I call it Mister Greenhat.

It was snowing. A boy was sitting on asphalt only with one green hat in the hands. His blond hair reached his shoulders. He was without shoes. The boy was shaking with cold. He could not remember the last time he has eaten. He was very hungry, but passers-by did not look at him. Throughout the day he got only some coins. It was not enough even for a piece of bread. But the boy was too polite and kind-hearted for asking more. He believed in people.

While he was crying because of cold, one man came to him and gave the boy a jacket, put in one hand a piece of bread and smiled.

“God is with you, my child,” said a man and turned to go out, but the boy stopped him:

“Wait!”

A man looked at him with interest. The boy took all coins from the green hat and gave to this man saying:

“My mother has said, I need to pay for help.”

A man was surprised hearing it from a child. He did not look like others children of his years. His whole life was visible in his serious blue eyes.

A man sat down on asphalt next to the boy and taking his green hat said:

“I do not need money, but I will take your hat.”

“Why,” a child was a little shocked.

“Because I gave to you what you do not have. So, I also take from you what I have not.”

A man smiled again and asked:

“Do you want to go with me?”

“Where?”

“I will show you the world,” answered and rose to his feet.

“Is it big?”

“You will know, if you go together.”

The boy stood up too asking:

“What is your name?”

A man smiled mysteriously.

“Call me Mister Greenhat. And you, my little wayfarer?”

“I am Isaac.”  

That’s all for today, my friend.

Be happy.

With love,

Yours Rya

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