Blackjack? Or how did I decide to study in Italy?

My dear friend,

First of all, let me introduce myself. I am Victoria. My surname is Chemerovskaya, but it is unofficial. Not because I do not want to reveal my personal data. I have one nasty story about myself and maybe one day I will be enough brave to admit, who I am, and to write it here. It is true, we all have a dark side inside us which we would like to hide from the outside world. And I am not happy having it, but basta about it.

About 2 years ago, in summer, when I have finished school and have gotten a certificate, the time to choose my future plans came very fast. I had an idea to study medicine. I passed the biology exam and was ready to send my application to the university. I was thinking a lot. I asked myself, will I be happy studying medicine? Because it takes a lot of patience, time and will. I understood, I am not a right person for that. I do not have enough patience, I like liberty and I need to have a free time for creativity, literature, writing and drawing. Mother, sorry, but my dream from childhood was only my dream.

When I was 8 years old, in the school teacher has given to everyone a paper balloon, where we could write our ambitions and dreams. On mine it has been written: “One day I will become a doctor.” Words of child. Many years have passed and I realized. Being a child I did not want to become a doctor. I only wanted to help to other people. To make them happy. To change something. I still want to do it. But I do not want to be a doctor.

I had some days for thinking, what do I want to do now. It was not easy. I do not like socialization, economics and everything, what includes communication with other people. Remembering all my dreams of childhood I decided – Italian language and literature is for me. You will ask, why? To be honest, I do not. I always had one stupid dream to study in Italy, to see this country from inside. I do not have more arguments. Also I love Latin language, literature and theater. So, literature + Italian culture + languages = Italian language and literature. Easy math.

Already on September I moved to Vilnius. I got the dormitory there and found one amazing friend, who was an anchor for me that long months. She is studying Russian language and literature.

I was one of students, who have exchanged parties to the library, because my goal was to participate in the Erasmus program next year. I was not sure, when. Professors said, it is too early for you. Wait a little bit. But I do not have patience and also my friend, who has sent the application to Turkey, said to me, do it. And I did. After many documents, tears and stress I have successfully entered the Genoa University. I had many doubts. I can say honestly; I was so naive. But about it later. I have to finish my red wine.

With love,

Yours Rya

10 thoughts on “Blackjack? Or how did I decide to study in Italy?”

  1. Oh my touch by this post. this blew me away. Thank you for taking the time to share these write up through these words.
    These words are painted in truth, experience and perspective. I especially love how you started it and how you ended the write up. Beautifully written and as I read through again on each line I was amazed . Each word you used are true and reflective of my personal encounter with people.
    This produced a smile on my tired face after a long day. You’re appreciated.
    You are welcome Mr/Mrs/Miss
    Peace ✌and Love ❤


      1. Thanks for taking your time to reply me.
        Thanks again for answering the questions put after you. I personally appreciate that very much.
        This was something very different and yet perfectly related to. The choice of words and metaphors is wonderful and makes everything seem so realistic.
        I could feel my eyes while reading some lines. What a masterpiece!! Kudos to you!!
        You are welcome
        Peace ✌and Love ❤


      2. Thank you! I appreciate your thoughtful response.

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  3. I was looking for comments. 🙂 An interesting blog. And perspective. It takes courage to leave one’s home for abroad. 8And not necessarily meet with sympathy!)
    Best of luck in your new adventure.
    Welcome to the “Followship” of the Equinox.


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