Hello, my dear friend
I do not know about what I could write today… I have many ideas, but I feel melancholy… Today my mood is going down. Have I said I am bipolar?
Bipolar disorder, also, known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks.
I am scared. Because I am alone. Nobody knows about it. Nobody believed that I have bipolar disorder. Nobody saw my medicines. Yeh, funny, right?
Now I have to motivate myself. I am trying to throw away all toxic thoughts, but… This melancholy does not let me do it.
My family has said every one is depressed. Depression does not exist. Bipolar disorder too. Just I have a great fantasy.
My dear friend, I feel so lonely. I have only myself and my faith… Which is not strong. I am not sure what should I do now. I do not know why I am writing it. I only wanted to say, you are amazing. I want to remind you, do not give up and achieve your dreams.
But today I can not do it… Sorry, my dear friend. It is really hard, but I will try to be normal.
Am I weird? Freak? Every one says so. Just because of my feelings.
You know, no one believes to my feelings.
Sorry for my depression.
Sorry for my feelings, for my freakness, for my words, for myself…
But… My dear friend, do not forget to ask people around you about their feelings. Just do not forget about them. Do not let them be alone. And you, do not be alone.
I am absolutely sure you have many talents and skills. You can use them. You can create, write, sing, draw… You can find yourself and change this world. You can change everything. But start from yourself. From your friends and family. Please, do not forget we are only humans.