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My confession. Or a new book?

Hello, my dear friend,

I am not sure if I have said it, but… I just wrote a book. And I hope to publish it one day… It was really hard work and what I can say, if you do not like to write, do not get a pleasure from this, it will be very hard for you. Anyway, you can try. And I will be waiting for your works.

But now I just wanted to share with some thoughts. After this book I began to write my way to the faith and… Of course it is written in my mother tongue, but I have translated a little. So, sorry for my English… Here is my beginning…

Hi, my dear friend,

The clock shows 1:57 a.m. And if you are here, you can see, I am not asleep yet. But now I want to talk about another thing. My lovely friend, take a coffee, sit down and listen. I will tell you my story. Call it my confession. But be silent. No one has to know it.

It happened inadvertently. Or is it exactly what is called destiny? The occasions affecting the future have been planned? Or may is it society’s manipulation? Alexander Dumas had said: When randomness is related to genius activity – this is called destiny. Did you notice this passive manifestation of genius? I do not too. Because I do not believe in destiny. A destiny is a planned thing you cannot change. Control maniac would not like it at all. But I tend to believe that there are no coincidences, as a destiny. There are statistics, probability theory and combinations. In my case, the story-line evolved into one of the possibilities what that led me to a certain way in a certain place. Or may it had to be so? May Plato’s idealism is too abstract? An abstract rationalism? Nowadays I would call Platonism’s limits so. Or may in the current world an absurd rationalism is sought to be returned? But basta questions.

My random acquaintance with one girl has yet been started at school. We both had a deeper course of history. A half year we were learning without knowing about each other ‘s existence. But one day she came, sat down in front of me and after a few minutes turned to me asking if I have taken a book. Finally, we were analyzing mercantilism, imperialism and coming capitalism. Is it not fun? You are reading about Great Depression and Cold War, but with next you sitting neighbor you start to discuss about Christianity. I have to confess, at that time I had no perception about religion. You know, it would be as if you have had a recipe, that would be like an idea, a cake as followers, but you have never thought who was a creator. Because people have enough narrow-minded. If here is a flower, they do not see the roots. Only beauty and colors. And you know, the baker may differ from the recipe creator. A Creator is a founder, and a baker is just a loyal messenger…

Of course, here is not a lot. It is not easy to translate, but I wanted to share with my idea. I wanted to show how narrow-minded I was. How I came to my current mind. And may one day I would translate more, but now it is enough. I am tired.

My dear friend, stay positive. And think more. Read more, learn more… Because you have so many opportunities.

With love,

Yours Rya

Church and some dialogues. Or maybe is it the beginning of my faith?

Hi, my dear friend,

I have one story for you. Today was a unique day. Today I have been in the church, today I met person I have not seen for a long time.

First of all, how did I decide to come there? Because only two days ago I have written I do not like churches. But I will say one thing – I came not to the church, I came to people. You will ask what is a different? I will answer – I was not there as a person from church society, I was as a friend, who could talk and share with his/ her thoughts with good friends after the pastor’s words.

I came 30 minutes before. I took my tea, my note book and sat down near the window in the hall. I had some ideas for writing. Have I said to you I am writing a book? Cha, would you buy it? Do not worry, I am joking…

Yes, and them to me came one person, which I could not call as a friend, but also as an unknown. He was one leader from Christian youth group. We have never talked as today. And he allowed me to understand one simple thing – I have to work for my goals. Yes, sometimes we are thinking it should be easier, why is it so difficult? But do not cry, do not complain. Work. And basta.

That guy gave me many examples and motivation and I was thankful for that dialogue, because now my goals have a hard time…

But it is not all. I want to share with some pastor’s thoughts:

Happy people are not realistic. God too. And also Jesus.

We do not have to find bad things. Look at the good for being happy. Throw away toxic thoughts. Analyze, separate and do not let them to come back.

Have for yourself at least 5 minutes in silence. Without music, people and toxic thoughts. And if they come to your mind, do not be angry. It is normal. We are just humans.

Realize why you have that toxic thoughts. Maybe because of your ” friend” who says to you, you can not do it, do not try, you are not enough smart… Or because of your own self-doubt. If it is so, maybe you did one mistake – you made it on the things you do the best. Imagine, you are very good in a graphic design and all your self-confidence was created on it. And one day you decide to change something. You start a new job or find a new hobby, and in the beginning you are not so good anymore as you were in a graphic design. You do mistakes and your self-confidence is going down.

The pastor has said, if you want to create a self-confidence, create by God. God will support you…

I know, sound weird. Even from myself… 2 years I am trying to do it… And I am still on the way… Just maybe I need to take more time then other?..

But after I have had an amazing dialogue with my old friend… We met in the church and went to one coffee… We were sitting there 6 hours and just talking about music. Can you imagine, I know him a few years, but we have never talked about music and today I understood we are so similar. I want to share with some words from our dialogue:

A Christianity does not limit you. You can listen music what you want. For God it does not important. It is important only for our church society what is not important for you. ( We both are a hard metal and rock lovers, so, sometimes this music opposes to Christianity.)

If you do not like drama, let’s come back to the classic. Did you watch The Watchmen?

If you want to read people, look how they behave with their friends.

I took this book again. I hate marketing. It manipulate me.

So, for today that is all, my dear friend. I hope, I gave you some good ideas or thoughts. Have a good night.

With love,

Yours Rya

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