Today I am 21 years old. It is weird number. To be honest, just 6 years ago I could not believe I will be 20… But now I am even 21… How do I feel? I am not sure. I was not waiting for my birthday. No, it does not mean I hate it or something like that… It means it is not so important for me as before…
I remember in the childhood I started to count days one month before my birthday… And today is like my birthday? Funny, right?
I am not waiting for gifts or wishes from facebook friends. No. I am waiting only for meeting with my real friends.
As George Meredith had said – do not just count your years, make your years count.
I am happy. 21 is a nice number, do not you think so, my dear friend?
I have one story for you. Today was a unique day. Today I have been in the church, today I met person I have not seen for a long time.
First of all, how did I decide to come there? Because only two days ago I have written I do not like churches. But I will say one thing – I came not to the church, I came to people. You will ask what is a different? I will answer – I was not there as a person from church society, I was as a friend, who could talk and share with his/ her thoughts with good friends after the pastor’s words.
I came 30 minutes before. I took my tea, my note book and sat down near the window in the hall. I had some ideas for writing. Have I said to you I am writing a book? Cha, would you buy it? Do not worry, I am joking…
Yes, and them to me came one person, which I could not call as a friend, but also as an unknown. He was one leader from Christian youth group. We have never talked as today. And he allowed me to understand one simple thing – I have to work for my goals. Yes, sometimes we are thinking it should be easier, why is it so difficult? But do not cry, do not complain. Work. And basta.
That guy gave me many examples and motivation and I was thankful for that dialogue, because now my goals have a hard time…
But it is not all. I want to share with some pastor’s thoughts:
Happy people are not realistic. God too. And also Jesus.
We do not have to find bad things. Look at the good for being happy. Throw away toxic thoughts. Analyze, separate and do not let them to come back.
Have for yourself at least 5 minutes in silence. Without music, people and toxic thoughts. And if they come to your mind, do not be angry. It is normal. We are just humans.
Realize why you have that toxic thoughts. Maybe because of your ” friend” who says to you, you can not do it, do not try, you are not enough smart… Or because of your own self-doubt. If it is so, maybe you did one mistake – you made it on the things you do the best. Imagine, you are very good in a graphic design and all your self-confidence was created on it. And one day you decide to change something. You start a new job or find a new hobby, and in the beginning you are not so good anymore as you were in a graphic design. You do mistakes and your self-confidence is going down.
The pastor has said, if you want to create a self-confidence, create by God. God will support you…
I know, sound weird. Even from myself… 2 years I am trying to do it… And I am still on the way… Just maybe I need to take more time then other?..
But after I have had an amazing dialogue with my old friend… We met in the church and went to one coffee… We were sitting there 6 hours and just talking about music. Can you imagine, I know him a few years, but we have never talked about music and today I understood we are so similar. I want to share with some words from our dialogue:
A Christianity does not limit you. You can listen music what you want. For God it does not important. It is important only for our church society what is not important for you. ( We both are a hard metal and rock lovers, so, sometimes this music opposes to Christianity.)
If you do not like drama, let’s come back to the classic. Did you watch The Watchmen?
If you want to read people, look how they behave with their friends.
I took this book again. I hate marketing. It manipulate me.
So, for today that is all, my dear friend. I hope, I gave you some good ideas or thoughts. Have a good night.
Yes, I am here again. Now you will ask why I am writing so much. In fact, this month I have too much free time. But I do not complain. I have more time for reading your blog.
But let’s come back to the beginning. Why am I writing this post? Nothing important. Just some taken photos in Vilnius city. Have a look and drink your coffee, tea, strawberry milkshake or what do you like.
Can you feel my nostalgia, my dear friend?
For today I say bye. And hope to see you tomorrow.
After one week here will be my birthday and, to be honest, for me this day does not mean so much like should. But this year I decided to change one thing – I do not want to get anything, I do not need a big party… I decide to give something.
Yeh, you have read well. For my birthday I would like to give something.
First of all, let me say, I am so happy, that you are here. And I do not want to moralize you. I only want to show, how much we, people, can do.
And I do not talk about saving our Earth from Global warming, pollution, tuberculosis, corruption or coming ( or not) Third World War. No, I am not talking about so global things. Enough to look around yourself. Not only we need to get help. Not only we want to be saved.
My dear friend, look around the streets, animal shelters, your neighbors houses. While you cry for your shoes, your hair, your clothes, here are many pets, that do not have food, toys and normal family.
I agree, here are many children too who had not happy childhood and good parents. But let’s be realistic – to adopt a pet is easier than a child. And at least you will make someone happy. Someone, who will love you forever.
But like I have said, I was not ready to moralize you. Here is my story, how I first time met Bon Bon.
In 2017 summer I decided, I do not want to work, I want to do volunteering. Before I have never tried it, because my family was against that, but finally I did it and finding one of animal shelters in my city, I called to them with question, maybe I could help with something. And I was so satisfied running to one organization next day.
As I remember, all my life I love animals. I always wanted to have a dog or a cat. That day was memorable to me. Because I met my small westie dog ( The West Highland White Terrier). When I asked about him, the leader of this organization has said, he is sitting here already two years and no one put him. Pure westie was sitting there two years and, my dear friend, do you know, why?
It is not because he is angry, he does not love people or is not smart, because it is absolutely on the contrary.
My dear friend, it is only because we, people, are used to have new things. Pityingly I can say that animals for us are just things. And when we are tiered of them, we throw them away. As it was with Bon Bon. So cute name for so long story. Did you know a bonbon is a sweet or small confection, especially a small bun coated in chocolate?
But… Returning to our story about Bon Bon. Amazing dog, amazing mind, amazing creature, which had terrible past.
At first this puppy squad was made for business. People, knowing that animals are helpless, used them for their own purposes. Bon Bon was one of them.
But someone called to the organization of saving animals and all dogs were taken away to animal shelters.
Two years Bon Bon was waiting for someone who would take him at home. His only dream was to have a family. And when the first time I saw him, I fell in love. After another three days Bon Bon already was at our home. He did not know, how to play, how to walk and where to sleep. He was afraid, we will take away his food and will leave him on the street after first walking outside. But now he is happy. He is a part of our family.
My dear friend, I am not waiting for good comments or respect. I just wanted to say, do not care only about yourself. You can do more, than you can imagine.
And as has said Antoine de Saint-Exupery: ” You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.”