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Mister Greenhat – II Chapter

Good evening, my lovely friend,

Today I will share the second chapter of my small story. If you have not read the first you can do it here.

Anyway, it is not so big and I would like to hear your opinion, my dear friend.

Chapter II

“ Where are we going?” – the boy had tried to pry out following the man. They already were walking some hours in the city. Greenhat had the map in the hands, but every time, turning to one side, got lost. While stopped near one brown building and looked to the showcases, where were hanging expensive clothes.

“ Why did we come here?” – Isaac was curious. The man only smiled and opened the door. The bell rang reporting about incoming customers, because of that a seller came very fast and began to jump around Greenhat.

“ Welcome to my shop. I am a Master Knijo. How could I help You? Did you come to order a new coat, Mister? Or for a new trousers?” – he could not shut up and all time was talking. Isaac was standing behind Greenhat and only heard this seller’s name showed himself.

“ Knijo? What the strange name,” – he commented too loud paying attention to himself. The Master got frozen and after angry squinted looked to another customer.

“ Who is talking? It seems to me, or to my shop came a huge dirt ball?” – and dramatically grabbed his hair from the face again turned to older customer. “ So, what would You like, Mister?”

“ This young master needs new clothes” – the man said cheerfully. With one hand fixing his hat another put on the boy’s shoulder.

“ I am sorry, but I am not sure, if I can find in my shop something for… this” – stated the Master Knijo frowning. Greenhat thinking touched his beard and evaluating look around the shop.

“ Yes. I think, You are absolutely right. We will find another place,” – and taking the boy’s hand turned to go out, but before behind the back he had heard an overwhelmed voice: “ To my mind, I would find something for the boy. Give me a minute.” The man satisfitied sat down on the wooden chair near the mirror. Isaac stayed to stand exploring the shop. From outside it was almost destroyed, but from inside here was very clearly and esthetic. Every stuff, as the clock with cats, was so simple, but this place looked abnormally. The child already tried to touch the vase painted in hieroglyphs, but heard the angry voice: “ Do not touch. I do not want you to make it dirty.”

A little bit upset the boy pulled his hand away and looked to the mirror. Too large the coat of Greenhat covered all holes of the boy’s clothes, but being barefoot, dirty cheeks and long disorderly hair did not look beautiful.

“ Here, take this,” – said the Master Knijo giving to Isaac black trousers. Blue sweater, shoes and grey coat. At first the child looked at the Master, after asking turned to Greenhat. Saw the agreement in the man eyes he took the clothes and went to the dressing cabin., where showed the Master Knijo.Playing with his new image in front of the mirror Isaac was very happy. It was the first time he dressed the clothes like these, but his mood changed fast. The boy looked upset, because of what Greenhat asked him: “ What happened, my young wayfarer?”

“ These clothes… Are You sure I can have them?” – in the palm of his hand was pinched the edge of the coat as he would be ready to say goodbye to him at any moment. The man put his hand on the boy’s hair and said gently: “ Sure. Why are you saying so?”

“ Because I am dirty and these clothes are new,” – whispered the child lowering his head. The man again fixed his green hat and takind Isaac’s hand said.” Let’s go. We already have to do something with your hair.”

“ What is about money?” – asked The Master Knijo. Greenhat turned to him.

“ Money? I think, we already have payed,” – said. The Masted understanding nothing only blinked his eyes.

“ You did not apologize,” – explained the man showing to the standing boy.

“ For what?” – still could not understand the Master Knijo. Greenhat dressed his coat, which had given to the boy, and putting his hands in the pockets answered: “ For disrespect for your customer. Or may do You want, that everyone would know, how you behave with your guests?”

“ But he is only the boy…”

“ He is the same human as we are,” – Greenhat interrupted. The Master only looked to Isaac with anger, who covered himself behind the Greenhat’s back, and said: ” I am sorry, Mister Customer.”

The boy smiled and turned leaving this place. Greenhat only put the money on the table and without any word also left the shop.

” Thank you,” – said Isaac taking a warm Greenhat’s hand.

Everyone deserves to be happy. I hope, my friend, You liked it. And I will be waiting for Your comments. And do not hesitate to show me my English language mistakes.

With love,

Yours Rya

Do not be alone

Hello, my dear friend

I do not know about what I could write today… I have many ideas, but I feel melancholy… Today my mood is going down. Have I said I am bipolar?

Bipolar disorder, also, known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks.

I am scared. Because I am alone. Nobody knows about it. Nobody believed that I have bipolar disorder. Nobody saw my medicines. Yeh, funny, right?

Now I have to motivate myself. I am trying to throw away all toxic thoughts, but… This melancholy does not let me do it.

My family has said every one is depressed. Depression does not exist. Bipolar disorder too. Just I have a great fantasy.

My dear friend, I feel so lonely. I have only myself and my faith… Which is not strong. I am not sure what should I do now. I do not know why I am writing it. I only wanted to say, you are amazing. I want to remind you, do not give up and achieve your dreams.

But today I can not do it… Sorry, my dear friend. It is really hard, but I will try to be normal.

Am I weird? Freak? Every one says so. Just because of my feelings.

You know, no one believes to my feelings.

Sorry for my depression.

Sorry for my feelings, for my freakness, for my words, for myself…

But… My dear friend, do not forget to ask people around you about their feelings. Just do not forget about them. Do not let them be alone. And you, do not be alone.

I am absolutely sure you have many talents and skills. You can use them. You can create, write, sing, draw… You can find yourself and change this world. You can change everything. But start from yourself. From your friends and family. Please, do not forget we are only humans.

With love,

Yours Rya

Stop and listen

Hi again, my dear friend,

How are you? How is your job, family, friends?.. When the last time you have asked how is your mother or father feeling? Or how you could help to your friend? Or why your sister or brother is so upset?

When the last time you have asked yourself, are you happy?

When the last time you have cried?

When the last time you have been angry?

When, my lovely friend, the last time you have said to yourself, you are amazing?

Can you remember? No?

Then I will say it to you. Just listen.

Maybe now you are thinking you can not do it. You are depressed or upset. You have problems and do not have a time for the rest.

But close your eyes for five minutes. Imagine yourself. Imagine your smile. Imagine people around you… Who do you see?

Think about happiness. Do not think about problems. Every problem is solved. It is only materialism. After some months you will not remember it.

Think about your goals. What do you want to do today? Tomorrow? Another week? Another month? Are you working for it? Are you trying to change something? Or you only try to solve your problems? Remember. After one problem comes another one… It is life…

But think. Are you still thinking? About what? About people around you? Are you afraid to disappoint them? Do not be… They will support you.

Think. Do you want to change something? Just do it. Now. Today. You do not know, how? Call to your best friend, sister, brother, father or someone else and talk. Talk about your dreams…

Good people will be near. Toxic people throw away from your life.

My dear friend, have you spent that five minutes in silence? Think, how much time you spend for yourself every day? Only you and your mind? How much?

I will share with you with my own story.

It is not long.

I know, some people are afraid to talk about their life experience. I know, how hard it can be. But, it happened.

Maybe you have a good family… Me too… Now…

I will not explain everything from my life. I just will say, that from childhood my step father every day has said to me, everything what I can achieve is to become a stripper. No one has heard it. No one has believed to me. He was talking so only when I was alone. And many years I was growing with this thought… I need to admit, it was painful. I was growing in hatred… But I have too much love… Love for people, nature and all this world… I know, I should hate people, but I can not…

My dear friend, people are amazing. Just not every one can solve his problems… Just not every one is strong… Just not every one can admit his weakness… But you can… Because when you admit it, you become stronger. And you will be… You will achieve everything, what you want.

Just listen… Listen you heart. And be happy.

With love,

Yours Rya

If you think about it, you can do it

Good morning, my dear friend,

Today is Thursday and I have to go to Vilnius city. It takes 4 hours with a bus, because I am living in Klaipeda, near the sea, in another side of our country.

You will ask what I am gonna to do there? Ech, I will answer… I am going to leave Vilnius university, where I am studying at this moment.

I was afraid to do it, but I decided to live for happiness, not for recognition of others. I have sent the application to the Netherlands universities. I changed my program. I want to study computer science… Can you imagine, my dear friend? Today I am still a student of Italian language and literature. Irony, right?

You will ask why I have not done it earlier… I will say, I did not have enough courage to do it. I thought I am not smart, disciplined and etc… But… It is only my toxic mind.

I CAN DO IT. AND I WILL.

My dear friend, it does not matter how hard or impossible it looks, do it. You are the one, who can change something, who has to work for his own happiness. Make a good decisions… And if they are wrong, do not worry. Understand them, learn from your mistakes, live… We are only humans, we are not perfect.

With love,

Yours Rya

My first artwork

Hello, my dear friend,

Today do not expect something wow. I just finished my new artwork and what I can say… I am sure it was the first ant the last…

Now I give a respect to every artist. It is really hard work and, if you are one of them, my dear friend, I wish you the greatest success and inspiration. You can do everything if only you want.

As had said Pablo Picasso – Inspiration exists, but it has to find you working.

Have a good work.

With love,

Yours Rya

Can you see it? can you feel it? Can you understand it?